I HAD A DREAM!!!!!
MY DREAM WAS THIS.......
confession!!!!!!!!!
We have seven children.... OUR DREAM WAS THAT THEY WOULD BE UNITED....United in Jesus!!!!! Just as IRMGARD and I are united in JESUS CHRIST...
We believed that SOMEHOW our seven kids would not be jealous of each other..
They would not quarrel....
They would be filled with humility...
Filled with the spirit of Jesus Christ....
They would prefer the happiness of others and not just of themselves...in other words they would be perfect human beings....
This dream also applies to the Children Of God...I could say the same for them....
THERE WAS TREMENDOUS POTENTIAL IN THIS GROUP THAT STARTED IN CALIFORNIA AND SOON SPREAD AROUND THE WORLD...before fizzling pretty much out..
Yesterday after finding a poster of my kids from 8 years ago I started first to cry my eyes out and then my tears turned to anger.
ANGER AGAINST GOD... I CALLED HIM ALL KINDS OF NAMES..
I BLAMED HIM FOR THIS OBVIOUS FAILURE OF HIS NOT TO GIVE ME MY DREAM.
I REALLY LET HIM HAVE IT...I TOLD HIM I PREFERRED LUCIFER TO HIM...AND EVEN WORSE!!!!!!!
After I finished my tirade, I knew in my heart that Somehow He Understood and He did not ZAP ME DEAD ON THE SPOT..even though I asked HIM to...
He even allowed me to have a great day out witnessing where HE anointed me to do a super job of sharing HIM with a hurting world.
THEN LAST NIGHT TASHY Natalia, Ruby, OUR number 3 daughter who is together with JAZZY Jasmine number 2 daughter, living in England,
Told us that she was super happy with her new life and that any FAME THAT THEY MIGHT HAVE RECEIVED IF MYYYYYYY DREAM HAD COME TRUE ........WOULD HAVE COMPLETELY RUINED THEM....
RUINED THEM......RUINED THEM.....RUINED THEM...
much more than they already are...
IRMGARD AND I WITH OUR KIND OF BEGGING SHARING JESUS JOB IS SO HUMILIATING THAT it keeps us from becoming into total proud arses...
MY WIFE JUST ADDED.....WE ARE STILL PRETTY PROUD....BUT WE WOULD BE MUCH WORSE WITH ALL OUR DREAMS COMING TRUE, THE WAY WE WANTED THEM TO COME TRUE....
So there you have it....
I have told Jesus how very very very sorry I am and soon our two boys will be leaving us... MIKEY nearly left us when he nearly died just a couple of months ago...one week in intensive care....
CONCLUSION
WE ARE A CRAZY MIXED UP FAMILY...MAYBE HOWEVER WE ARE JUST NORMAL LIKE YOU?????????!!!!!!!!
AND AS I KEEP TELLING THE WORLD..
JESUS LOVES YOU(me too) JUST THE WAY YOU ARE AND I AM...
NOT THE WAY YOU SHOULD BE...
NOT THE WAY HE WANTS YOU AND ME TO BE...
NOT EVEN THE WAY YOU WANT YOURSELF TO BE
....BUT....BUT.....BUT ......JUST THE WAY YOU ARE RIGHT NOW....
THAT IS THE GOOD NEWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND IN JOHN CHAPTER 17 HE, THE MIGHTY GOD OF THE UNIVERSE HAS PRAYED............
THAT AS THE FATHER AND HE ARE ONE THAT WE WOULD ALL BE ONE..
So one day IT WILL HAPPEN......
GBY KGFG no matter what happens.. Then you cannot go wrong!!!!
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